Motherhood Declined

My hands are trembling,

My heart is racing,

My eyes are watering,

My palms sweating,

My head is spinning,

My breaths are challenging,

My vision is blurring,

My disease is anxiety,

 

I am not my disease.

 

My thoughts are despairing,

My world is darkening,

My demons are encompassing,

My scars are bleeding,

My tears are burning,

My chest is aching,

My mind is blanking,

My disease is depression,

 

I am not my disease.

 

My future is unwelcoming,

My weight is fattening,

My acne is surfacing,

My body is cramping,

My room is spinning,

My dreams are crashing,

My relationship is failing,

My disease is PCOS,

 

I am not my disease.

 

My soul is hurting,

My cries are deafening,

My brain is pounding,

My pulse is throbbing,

My legs are wavering,

My words are gasping,

My needs are yearning,

My disease is heartbreak,

 

Am I my disease?